To sing the blues you've got to live the tunes and carry on

i was sitting here reflecting on the past couple of times i was at the river. usually my personality is "go go go" i always have to be doing something when i am in clayton. but the past couple of visits all i wanted to do was sit on the dock, or swim, or even fish. i have not fished since i was maybe 10?? or even earlier then that. and i remember when i would go out in the Lyman with grandpa i would get so bored so fast. i would always get stuck on the bottom of the river or lose my gross worm, that someone else would have had to put on the hook. i would always think that something better was happening someplace else, like i was missing something. its not to say that i didn't have fun, i was probably just the typical kid. but all i wanted to do last weekend was stand on the edge of the dock and cast that line into the river, and if i caught a rock bass i was satisfied, and if i didn't catch anything, well, i was still satisfied. i feel obligated to take the time to actually relish in the all of the experience of the river. could there be a reason for this? i am not sure. maybe there is a force around me now that gives me guidance to feel this way, or maybe it is coincidence that i am just paying more attention. i would like to believe it is both.