i will, no i will not forget you, nor will i ever let you go

ok. so this is weird. i was looking at my blog on my myspace, where i post a lot of my poems. some are new, some old. i came across the one you see below. it was written for my grandma margaret. she died in 1999. i wrote this in 2001. to be exact, april 12, 2001. whats weird is my grandfather passed away on april 12 of this year. i dont know. i just find it a little erie and cool at the same time.......

it’s still hard to remember

i’ve tried to forget you

so i won’t feel the pain.

honestly, i never have taken it all in.

i never said goodbye.

even if i did i still would feel

this void, this emptiness.

it’s strange, you know,

losing someone forever.

sometimes i forget

that you are gone.

maybe because you really

remain with us.

you know, he’s really happy again.

and it fills me with a certain

calmness and warmth

to know that.

i know she is not you.

there will never be anyone
to fill the spaces

which you left behind.

i hope you know that he is okay.

i hope you are so happy

wherever you are, that you are young and dancing

like you used to.

i hope you remember us.

we have not forgotten you,

how can you forget love?

04/12/2001

on that note, here is a poem i wrote recently for my grandfather....

you still linger in my mind
still linger in my life
i cannot erase your name from the
day where you would
have seen me become a wife

the dead flowers on my stairs
are still wet with water
i cannot erase this life
where i was your granddaughter