ANOTHER WORK WEEK IS APPROACHING. BILLY AND I HAD A NICE QUIET WEEKEND AT HOME. DID SOME THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE THAT WE HAVE NEGLECTED BECAUSE OF TRAVELLING NORTH EVERY WEEKEND. WE WATCHED A MOVIE LAST NIGHT - COUPLES RETREAT. IT WAS REALLY FUNNY BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT MADE YOU APPRECIATE YOUR RELATIONSHIP. AND I IMMEDIATELY GOOGLED WHERE IT WAS FILMED BECAUSE IT WAS GORGEOUS AND I WANT TO GO THERE - ST REGIS IN BORA BORA. HELLO - PARADISE!! MAYBE SOMEDAY!
I HAVE ONE WEEK OF WORK AND THEN IT IS 4TH OF JULY VACATION FOR 10 DAYS. HOLLA! WE ARE RENTING A HOUSE IN TOWN FOR THE WEEK. THE CLAYTON COTTAGE, ON MERRICK ST. I AM EXCITED TO HAVE THE CONVENIENCE OF A HOUSE AND THE LOCATION IS PERFECT FOR THE WEEK. NO WORRIES OF DRIVING ANYWHERE. SOME SYRACUSE FRIENDS ARE STOPPING BY FOR A COUPLE DAYS. I LOVE 4TH OF JULY WEEKEND! ITS MY FAV!
THEN ON THE 10TH I WILL BE IN ROCHESTER TO SEE ONE OF MY GREAT FRIENDS GET MARRIED! LOOKING FORWARD TO A FUN TIME WITH GREAT FRIENDS.
SUMMER IS HERE! AND I AM GOING TO BLOG THE HELL OUT OF IT! WATCH OUT!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
JUST BREATHE (PEARL JAM)
Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands
the ones I love,..
Some folks just have one,
yeah, others, they've got none, huh-uh
Stay with me,..
Let's just breathe.
Practiced are my sins,
never gonna let me win, aw-huh,..
Under everything, just another human being, aw-huh,..
Yeh, I don't wanna hurt, there's so much in this world
to make me bleed.
Stay with me,..
You're all I see.
Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean.
I wonder everyday
as I look upon your face, aw-huh,..
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take, aw huh,..
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave...
Did I say that I need you?
Oh, did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean, ah-ah...
Nothing you would take,..
Everything you gave.
Hold me till I die,..
Meet you on the other side.
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands
the ones I love,..
Some folks just have one,
yeah, others, they've got none, huh-uh
Stay with me,..
Let's just breathe.
Practiced are my sins,
never gonna let me win, aw-huh,..
Under everything, just another human being, aw-huh,..
Yeh, I don't wanna hurt, there's so much in this world
to make me bleed.
Stay with me,..
You're all I see.
Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean.
I wonder everyday
as I look upon your face, aw-huh,..
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take, aw huh,..
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave...
Did I say that I need you?
Oh, did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,..
No one knows this more than me.
As I come clean, ah-ah...
Nothing you would take,..
Everything you gave.
Hold me till I die,..
Meet you on the other side.
BACK TO MY ROOTS
I HAVE TOTALLY NEGLECTED MY BLOG. IN PERFECT EMILY FASHION, I STARTED SOMETHING AND DID NOT FINISH IT. I PARTLY BLAME MY TERRIBLE FACEBOOK ADDICTION. IT IS CONSUMING ME! I ALSO HAVE SOME FORM OF WRITERS BLOCK.
THE OTHER NIGHT I FINALLY WATCHED THE MOVIE "JULIA AND JULIA" AND IT MADE ME MISS THE WAY I FELT WHEN I WOULD WRITE HERE. LOVED THE MOVIE, BY THE WAY.
I ALWAYS ENVISIONED TURNING 30 WAS GOING TO BE A BIG CELEBRATION. THE ONLY THING I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WAS COVERING UP A FEW GREYS. I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE OVERSHADOWED BY ALL OF THIS LOSS. A FEW DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY I HAD A BREAKDOWN, WHEN I REALIZED PETER WOULDN'T BE THERE TO CELEBRATE WITH ME. AND MY BIRTHDAY CAME AND WENT. AND YES IT WAS NICE AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THOSE WHO WERE WITH ME. BUT SOMETHING WAS MISSING. AND IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. AND NEEDLESS TO SAY, I WAS HOPING THE YEAR WOULD START OUT BETTER THAN LAST YEAR ENDED. AND NO. IT HAS NOT. I HAVE BEEN TOLD IT GETS WORSE AS YOU AGE. LOSING PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE. AND SO IT MAY BE TRUE. BUT ALL THE SAME IT IS AWFUL.
AND LATELY I FEEL LIKE BEFORE I CAN EVEN HEAL FROM ONE LOSS, SOMEONE ELSE IS GONE. PETER, KEITH, UNCLE JOE. WHAT IS GOING ON? I FEEL LIKE MY SORROW IS KEEPING ME JUMPING FROM STONE TO STONE UNTIL EVENTUALLY I FALL IN THE WATER AND JUST DROWN IN IT ALL. MAYBE THAT IS WHAT I NEED.
ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO NOT COMPLETELY LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY IT SHOULD BE LIVED. THE WAY YOU WANT TO. SO, THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO STRIVE FOR. I AM GOING TO PURGE THE USELESS AND UGLINESS FROM MY LIFE. AND FOCUS ON WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE THIS LIFE I HAVE CREATED THAT MUCH BETTER. I CAN'T WASTE MY TIME OR ENERGY ON THINGS OR PEOPLE THAT ARE NOT GOING TO MAKE A POSITIVE IMPACT ON MY LIFE ANYMORE. I AM NOT SAYING THIS TO YOU, IF YOU ARE READING, WHOEVER YOU ARE. I AM MAKING A STAND TO MYSELF. BECAUSE IT IS ABOUT TIME.
THE OTHER NIGHT I FINALLY WATCHED THE MOVIE "JULIA AND JULIA" AND IT MADE ME MISS THE WAY I FELT WHEN I WOULD WRITE HERE. LOVED THE MOVIE, BY THE WAY.
I ALWAYS ENVISIONED TURNING 30 WAS GOING TO BE A BIG CELEBRATION. THE ONLY THING I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WAS COVERING UP A FEW GREYS. I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE OVERSHADOWED BY ALL OF THIS LOSS. A FEW DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY I HAD A BREAKDOWN, WHEN I REALIZED PETER WOULDN'T BE THERE TO CELEBRATE WITH ME. AND MY BIRTHDAY CAME AND WENT. AND YES IT WAS NICE AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THOSE WHO WERE WITH ME. BUT SOMETHING WAS MISSING. AND IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. AND NEEDLESS TO SAY, I WAS HOPING THE YEAR WOULD START OUT BETTER THAN LAST YEAR ENDED. AND NO. IT HAS NOT. I HAVE BEEN TOLD IT GETS WORSE AS YOU AGE. LOSING PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE. AND SO IT MAY BE TRUE. BUT ALL THE SAME IT IS AWFUL.
AND LATELY I FEEL LIKE BEFORE I CAN EVEN HEAL FROM ONE LOSS, SOMEONE ELSE IS GONE. PETER, KEITH, UNCLE JOE. WHAT IS GOING ON? I FEEL LIKE MY SORROW IS KEEPING ME JUMPING FROM STONE TO STONE UNTIL EVENTUALLY I FALL IN THE WATER AND JUST DROWN IN IT ALL. MAYBE THAT IS WHAT I NEED.
ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO NOT COMPLETELY LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY IT SHOULD BE LIVED. THE WAY YOU WANT TO. SO, THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO STRIVE FOR. I AM GOING TO PURGE THE USELESS AND UGLINESS FROM MY LIFE. AND FOCUS ON WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE THIS LIFE I HAVE CREATED THAT MUCH BETTER. I CAN'T WASTE MY TIME OR ENERGY ON THINGS OR PEOPLE THAT ARE NOT GOING TO MAKE A POSITIVE IMPACT ON MY LIFE ANYMORE. I AM NOT SAYING THIS TO YOU, IF YOU ARE READING, WHOEVER YOU ARE. I AM MAKING A STAND TO MYSELF. BECAUSE IT IS ABOUT TIME.
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